peace of mind

first of all can i just say

i know i blog

A LOT

like 24352345 blogs a day

its cray

i know

but i use my blog

to write down a lot of my thoughts

and feelings

and pictures and such

just to document this time in my life

what i like

what i dont like

what im going through

what i learn

my hopes and dreams

all that stuff and when something inspires me

i blog it out!

moving on.

today i went to singles ward

i have been to a few different ones

but mostly i have been going to farewells

or honestly just sleeping in

my dad has a new calling as the

YSA 2nd counselor 

so today was my first day at the official singles ward

my mom and dad both had to speak

so my brother came with me

thank goodness!

so we make faces at our parents as they are speaking

and all sorts of stuff

its hilarious

to my right there is a very attractive young man

and so of course i tell kyle

then we are singing a hymn and kyle is

being a little jerk and wont share the hymn book

with me but have no fear

attractive man sitting next to me

scoots over and shares

how cute

so then we introduce ourselves

his name is micheal

(and yes katie same micheal from last week

remember that sacrament prayer? yup him!

but he is still SO cute!!)

then i meet up with sarah and tiff and we go

to class and micheal is our teacher!

me and tiff are busting up laughing the whole time

cause that is how we always are but

everything he is doing is making us pee our pants

seriously we are like crying we are laughing so hard

i dont know why this always happens when i get with tiff but it does

so the poor guy probably thinks we are laughing at him

oh well...so after class we have

relief society which was really good

it was awesome to feel the spirit in the room

and i loved that feeling so much

so after church i went to the temple

i just didnt want the spirit to leave me

so while i was there i just sat in my car

and prayed

and prayed

and prayed

i prayed for days!

i just prayed for everything and everyone

after that i just felt such a peace of mind

and such happiness!

and confidence with my decisions

i know the lord is on my side

i know he loves me no matter what

and that is will always listen to me

but lately the thing i have learned the most about 

prayer and asking God and decisions and all that is

you cant just ask God what to do

what choice to make

if you have options placed in front of you

you have to choose one for youself

you have to take that first step

THEN God will let you know if it is

right or wrong

he will not lead you astray

when i had to decide between two jobs

i prayed and prayed and prayed

i was so torn

i thought the new job was better so i took it

and real quick God let me know i needed to

stay at my current job

and i was so happy i was able to!

i am thankful for the spirit in my life

i am not perfect

but i have good intentions

and i am doing my best

as long as i keep trying

i know i can make it

i am thankful for this new found happiness in my life.