the old and wise

had a good

looooooonnnnnnnngggg

talk with my dad just barley

about kinda everything

i am so thankful for my parents

i am so blessed to have them

me and my dad are SO alike

its scary

im just so thankful for their understanding

and being non judgemental

and listening

and the advice they give me

i am thankful they dont get into my business

unless its to give me good advice

they are just so mature

they way the go about problems

and i know that sounds funny

but i know some parents

who get all wrapped up and

sucked into their kids drama

when its really not their place at all

im so thankful for the trials i have

but more importantly

for the people i have that go through 

those trials with me

my dad said something very interesting to me

he said that sometimes the

guardian angles we have

and sometimes the spirits giving us promptings

are our future children

that they could be the ones with us

telling us not to make that stupid choice

etc.

i believe that

and knowing that i feel more watched than

ever to make the right choice

if my very own kids are watching me

i should be making the right choices all the time

its really something to think about

and it just makes me want to be that much better

i already love my future husband

so so much i cant even put into words how much i love him

and even more so my future kids

oooohhh it seriously brings tears to my

eyes, i just love them to pieces

i want to be the best mother for them

and someday i will

i am so thankful for this gospel

no one is perfect

i am no where near perfect!

but just knowing that i can always be forgiven

even if it is for the same sin 

again and again and again

i will always be forgiven

and God will always love me

and accept me

i am just feeling very grateful tonight

for good friends

good advice

and the gospel

 

DON'T JUDGE ME

BECAUSE I SIN

DIFFERENTLY THAN YOU.

meet the parents

in the past week i have meet

three different sets of parents

and their siblings

or other family members

i take meeting a guys family pretty seriously!

and they all love me!

but, here's the problem

i dont intend on making any

of these guys my boyfriend!

and now their family is messaging me

saying

when are you coming over again

oh your so cute it was so great to finally meet you

your even greater than the things we have heard about you

such sweet things

i really do well with parents

but....gah!

boys...your getting ahead of yourselves here!

and with the

ONE GUY

i actually do like

and his family likes me

nope...just wont work out

really...?

gosh dang it!

seriously haha

this is a joke!

but really i find this all hilarious

cause i just want

THE RIGHT GUY

ooohhh well.

im only 18

no rush to settle down

i need to remember that!

also spent the day with my sissy!

we got lunch with mom and the bro

then we got ice cream

ran errands

watched easy a

painted our nails

then i helped her get ready for a bbq

then she let me drive her brand new car home

it was awesome

other than i couldnt start it for like 10 minutes

those "push to start"

cars are not as easy to figure out as i thought they would be 

haaa wwoooww

we also had a great conversation about missionaries

and how they should be

WORTHY

to go out

and not lie about it

just to please their friends, family and ward members

its such a crying shame when they do

shame on them!

it really gets me worked up

boys are so stupid!

seriously.

so so stupid.

thats why...i need a man...someday.

well that was a great ramble!

adios!  

summer jam 2012

so yesterday at 5 i arrived at

coltons house

where colton santino and landon were

all waiting for me

we lingered around for a bit then

jumped in colton's car to head up to SLC

but too much rim makes the ride

too hard...so we all had to jump out and

walk the boulevard

just kidding...kinda

he really does have too much rim

so we did all end up having to get in my car

so were off to slc...

after we stop at maverick for gas and drinks

the whole way up were jammin

to wiz kahlifa

and just talking and laughing, having a good time

thennnn were in SL and i have driving

especially in a cray city like that

im struggling

finally we park

and run into some mutual friends

landon buys his ticket from them

for way cheap! lucky duck

so we get to the entrance 

santino has to pick up his ticket in a different line

me and landon have ours

and colton STILL hasnt bought his

and they are 

SOLD OUT!

every one on the street is selling them for

$50

seriously?

thats double the price

but colton tells me to let him use my ticket receipt

im like there is no way they are going to let you in

just using my receipt!

but landon gets in

then colton is up and the girls at the gate

are like...this is just a receipt

do you have your ticket

hes like what no i just barley bought this off a guy

out there

the girls are like yeah this isnt a ticket

hes complains about how messed up that is

then he works up his charm

flashes them his dazzling smile

and they let him in...

SERIOUSLY!?

hahah i just laughed forever

it was awesome

so were all in, trying to find tino

cause he had to go in a different way

we dont find him forever...

finally do

we walk around for a bit, pick a spot

were listening to kirko bangz

everything is awesome

we walk around a bit more

listen to some people we have never even heard of before

a couple comedians

we even get to see a girl fight!

it was cray!

hair was seriously flying!

they were ripping each others extensions out

and hammer fisting each other in the eye!

classy girls...real classy

then baby bash who

SUCKED!

oh my gosh 

we were all furious

he was terrible!

the entire time he just had his songs playing

he wasnt even really singing!

every now and then he would just throw in a

"yeah...yeah..YEEAAHHH"

and when he did try to sing

THEY WERENT THE RIGHT WORDS!

what a joke.

finally he is off and more artists are on

were all getting so tired and its getting late

everyone just wants j cole!

then he finally comes on!

AHHHH

he killed it!

he did AMAZING!

BAHHH IM JUST BURSTING WITH EXCITEMENT

REMEMBERING HIM!

he's so good live!

he was pretty drunk though ha

he kept stumbling around

but would recover quickly

and at least he knew the words to his songs

and put on a good show

and he's so hot

personal opinion

whatev

it was totally amazing!

then it was over and we left

i made colton drive the rest of the night

we went to wendys forever

and just ate and talked then we were going to go to 

the after party at the complex but we were 

all so so tired from standing for 

hours and hours

so we drove around and

just hung out in SLC

till the a.m

then we all went home

i love all those guys

seriously 

love

cherish

adore

all of them!

they are such gems!

i am so glad i got to spend the night with them

before landon goes on his mission

and colt and tino go to college

it was overall such a good night

(:

now here are some pictures of what it was like

not all of these are from my camera

clearly

 

 

all j cole

cause thats all i was really there for(:

mm mmm!

good night

good people

good energy

good times

good memories

(:

scatterbrained thoughts {3 a.m}

oh there is so much to say about tonight

went to summer jam but i will get to that later

right now i need to write out my restless mind

*breath*

you....again.

where do i start?

kinda like old times....but different

its the same

embrace

smile

laugh

look in your eye

hand holding

touching

as it always has been

its the same feelings

but its different because of time

time is running out

time spent apart

time spent together...

but times remembered

we had a good talk

a really good talk

that talk that i've been needing

then again with the whole timing thing

it was the right time for this talk

and thank you for that

thank you for saying it how it is

how you feel

and listening to me as well

we are on the same page

believe me

i completely understand

time is not in our favor anymore..

but those moments

wrapped in your arms

looking up to see you kissing me

holding your stare

causing the smile on your face

(:

worth it

bitter sweet...completely bitter sweet

but mostly sweet

growing together...growing apart

just as long as we are growing together

our time just isnt now

its hard to be just friends

with someone you were never just friends with

i think those feelings will always be there

but until the right time i will

tuck them away

and thats okay with me

maybe our short amount of time was to simply 

fix each others broken hearts

to learn to love again

thats what it did for me at least

and you did it in the most gentle

genuine

sincere

respectful

careful

way possible

{perfect timing}

tonight i saw the side of you i have been 

waiting to see for months

that side that would confirm my feelings for you

(bad timing for that)

i know you 

truly care

i know you better now

and i just love you all the more!

as a person

you have a good heart

a pure soul

a strong head

and hard working hands

you are a good person

you are the one that got away

but you are also the one that has truly

changed my life

put a TON of things in perspective for me

you have made me think a lot

about so many different things

but mostly about you

in a good way

im going to miss you

im going to miss that crap out of you!

but your not gone forever

>>>its all okay<<<

i am okay

as i was driving home

i may or may not have shed a couple tears

im not sure what kind of  tears they were though

happiness

sadness

im not sure

probably both

right now i am just proud of myself

for understanding

for not taking circumstances to heart

for keeping my head on straight (mostly)

and not getting too carried away

good job mckayla

it was a good night

but MAN i am exhausted!

all is well.

 

 

laughter = ha x 3

 

 

clearly i have too much time on
my hands today
i've been blogging up a storm!
but i just love to laugh(:
it takes all your worries away
i was talking with my bro and he just
always makes me laugh
im grateful for that(:

cant live with 'em, cant live without 'em

so last night i was hanging out with

some friends and taylor

for some reason

some how

got stuck like this in a chair

boys will be boys 

and do stupid things thats for sure

but then caleb decided to join

and even better

they decided to fight

i dont think i'll ever understand

how guys can be so immature

but it was 

HILARIOUS!

dont know why it was so funny to me

but i was rolling on the ground laughing!

boys will be boys

<><><><>

worked with Jake yesterday

we always have good times(:

he made me a special cupcake!

looks....tasty?

nope, tasted like crap

haha were always creating new stuff though

its the thought that counts right?

i made him a way better surprise though!

{frosting art}

so after a long day at work

we went shopping!

ankle combat boots, lovin.

 

and then i got some of these^^

mint jeans my friends

it was a successful trip if i do say so myself!

bring it!

 

 

ready to go

TOMORROW IS SUMMER JAM

GET WIT IT!

rollin up with the homies(:

sooo stoked!

> j cole

> kid ink

> kirko bangz

> baby bash 

>>> & more!!!

i've been wanting to go to a killah concert forever!

here we go!

bracelets

 

rings

lipstick

 boots


MY LATEST OBSESSIONS

i hope

i hate not knowing as in

i didnt see it with my own eyes

but with everything lined up the way it is

i may as well have...

im stuck between a rock and a hard place

thats for sure

all i can do is hope

i hope you made the right choice

i hope you didnt fall to their level

i hope you didnt repeat your past

i hope your not lying to me

but the way our conversation went..

the way you turned it on me after i called you out

kinda says you did....

who are you to judge me?

you've got a few months to get yourself together

and get out there and do it RIGHT

dont be mad at me

im on your side.

oh great,

a sonic run

once a week

has become tradition

...oh well(:

thanks brah!

 i've been wanting one of these

bracelets ohh...FOREVER

and my bro bought it for me(:

dodgers cause thats where its at!

i would love one of these