ouch.

ready for a ranting venting self therapy blog sesh? here we gooooo! soooo i was on the road to moving on! then i re read the facebook message you sent me...well those wounds opened right back up! stabbed me in the chest again...and the words im a bad friend, i dont care about anyone but myself, i need to change, i need a damn wake up call and more....well...i have a million things i want to say but i dont feel like i should cause now im angry and hurt..again. i know you kind of said sorry? i would like to think. but a sharp tongue can cut your own throat thats why i havent said anything directly to you! and now im going to stop before i start saying more. we are on like different planets now i feel like. and I HATE IT! i hate not having my best friend i hate all of this more than ANYTHING but i dont know how to fix it yet. just understand that. and that is all....