this is stupid

this whole post is stupid.

stop reading cause its just me venting.

and if your still reading...uhmm

enjoy?

remember how i told myself 

"oh im falling for this guy but i KNOW its going to 

end in heart break!"

well...i fell now here is the heart break

right on time.

thank you.

right now im more mad than sad, i have a lot more 

reasons to be mad.

i shouldn't be sad at all actually

listen to how stupid this boy is that i fell for

he is in love...with...himself

he only talk about himself

his body

his job

his money

his cat

his clothes

etc.

when PUSH came to FREAKING SHOVE

when i needed him

he walked away.

well i put the whole

"if you walk away and they dont chase you keep walking

cause they dont care"

yeah that thing to the test

he didn't care

he didn't call

he didnt do anything!

he didn't fight

he didnt do anything for me

i was as good as an "official girlfriend" would be to him

and he...gave me nothing in return that i can think of at this moment

how pointless!

how stupid!

i wasted my time

my feelings

my money

my energy!

all on someone who didn't even notice everything i did for them

im an idiot.

and i realize all this, i saw it all coming

but it STILL hurts.

dang it.