don't worry, its okay.

after a 2 hour drive, countless tears, and a mcdonald's run

 last night i am okay now, thank you kenz! 

seriously i needed that so bad right now

i've just realized that its okay to not be okay,

 its okay to be lost, and to be finding myself

its okay to be scared and unsure 

its all just okay! 

i have some huge decisions to be making 

like moving into another apartment,

 i went and looked at it today and i love it, 

and then there is getting a new job

 i am in love with my job 

im in love with the work, 

the company, 

the employee's, 

the managers,

 the customers 

EVERYTHING 

every single thing about my job i absolutely love! 

and leaving my job is going to hurt....A LOT! 

but i honestly need more money

especially living at this new place...aahhhh! 

*breath in* *breath out*

 im under a lot of stress right now.

 i should probably go for a run or do yoga or SOMETHING!

 i just know that as crazy as life gets 

and as stressful and hard and confusing as it all is

 IT WILL work out. 

you just have to TRY and put effort into it.

 i refuse to do nothing with my life.

 i am an extremely independent person. 

like it scares me how independent i am 

because so many people try to help me

 but i just want to do everything for myself.

 which can  be good...and bad.

 i like challenges

 i like figuring things out 

and i like to learn 

which is why i love school so much...anyway

 i have a lot of challenges to face 

and a lot of things to figure out

 but right now i need to do what is best for me.

 i think moving to a new apartment 

with new roommates will be a good thing

 living with dal has put a lot of stress on our friendship 

and its just not the same anymore 

everyone says to not live with your best friend...now i see why. 

everyone told me that but im so stubborn

 i didnt listen and thats okay too 

i have to learn things for myself. 

anyway i have to go to work now! gah!

 im gonna miss the sweet tooth fairy SO MUCH! :(