oh there is so much to say about tonight
went to summer jam but i will get to that later
right now i need to write out my restless mind
*breath*
you....again.
where do i start?
kinda like old times....but different
its the same
embrace
smile
laugh
look in your eye
hand holding
touching
as it always has been
its the same feelings
but its different because of time
time is running out
time spent apart
time spent together...
but times remembered
we had a good talk
a really good talk
that talk that i've been needing
then again with the whole timing thing
it was the right time for this talk
and thank you for that
thank you for saying it how it is
how you feel
and listening to me as well
we are on the same page
believe me
i completely understand
time is not in our favor anymore..
but those moments
wrapped in your arms
looking up to see you kissing me
holding your stare
causing the smile on your face
(:
worth it
bitter sweet...completely bitter sweet
but mostly sweet
growing together...growing apart
just as long as we are growing together
our time just isnt now
its hard to be just friends
with someone you were never just friends with
i think those feelings will always be there
but until the right time i will
tuck them away
and thats okay with me
maybe our short amount of time was to simply
fix each others broken hearts
to learn to love again
thats what it did for me at least
and you did it in the most gentle
genuine
sincere
respectful
careful
way possible
{perfect timing}
tonight i saw the side of you i have been
waiting to see for months
that side that would confirm my feelings for you
(bad timing for that)
i know you
truly care
i know you better now
and i just love you all the more!
as a person
you have a good heart
a pure soul
a strong head
and hard working hands
you are a good person
you are the one that got away
but you are also the one that has truly
changed my life
put a TON of things in perspective for me
you have made me think a lot
about so many different things
but mostly about you
in a good way
im going to miss you
im going to miss that crap out of you!
but your not gone forever
>>>its all okay<<<
i am okay
as i was driving home
i may or may not have shed a couple tears
im not sure what kind of tears they were though
happiness
sadness
im not sure
probably both
right now i am just proud of myself
for understanding
for not taking circumstances to heart
for keeping my head on straight (mostly)
and not getting too carried away
good job mckayla
it was a good night
but MAN i am exhausted!
all is well.
No comments:
Post a Comment