lose lose

ya know that feeling when you've been so hurt

that your tired of it

so you decide to woman up and try to fix it

but its not as easy as you thought it would be

in fact its not easy at all

because you dont EVER want to get hurt like that again

much less hurt someone else that you love with all your heart 

so you think its best to just stay away

and watch from a distance

but that hurts too

it just slowly opens up that hole inside your chest

because you aren't apart of something that you once were

but your STILL too scared to fix it

cause the outcome is still unknown

and you just cant possibly bare that pain ever again

that is maybe a sliver of everything i feel today

so i turn up the tunes

and eat bottomless bowls of fruity pebbles

like that will ease the pain

or solve my problems

but in a few minutes i have to go face someone

that i cant possibly hide this hurt from

but i will try to anyway

because i dont want them to know im hurt

because i dont want them to get dragged into this

...AGAIN...

its a lose lose type of day

^^^

SO OBSESSED.