hazy

surgery went well, they said it would only take about 45 minutes but it actually took like 2 hours, why?! i have no clue, the past few days have seriously been a blur, between the pain pills, the sleeping pill and the cold medicine im hardly conscious. no joke. i wake up to eat, change my clothes cause im constantly sweaty {nasty} and take more medicine. let me tell ya im living the life. but hey my mom got me netflix so gossip girl all day everyday! if i can stay awake for a full episode...also zac has been a total angel...hes always right by my side bringing me anything i ask for (chinese food, glamor magazine, hot chocolate etc.} i name it and that boy is on it! but i feel so bad keeping him coped up with me, i mean he could be out with his friends but he insists on staying with me...while i sleep...sheesh he is just too kind! we did start watching vampire diaries...its alright but i think he is more into it than i am! hahaha im just so glad he is around he puts me in such a better mood...and i also try to actually stay awake and not medicated around him, my mom has also been wonderful...waking me up every 2 hours for medicine and food and changing my ice...my thigh hurts more than my shoulder surprisingly...i get my stitches out tomorrow AHHHH im terrified cause when i had my z plastys done i had like 200 stitches and getting them out was THE MOST painful part! this post is pretty chaotic cause im just trying to blog real quick for the heck of it....i was trying to read some of the blogs i follow and i couldnt even comprehend it! i feel awful...gaahhh everything is so slow and hazy...why would people do drugs to feel like this!? i hate it! honestly. well...back to gossip girl and my ice water...life is just so exciting lately...oh and i keep having dreams about shopping! im a shopaholic i know...must shop....laters. oh and cause bandaging my shoulder is so awkward i dont have to wear a bra ever! no boob jail! just button up shirts or hoodies and spandex and tall socks...up thats my swag these days.