when it hits

when missing you hits...it hits like a freight train. 

it comes out of no where in particular 

but when it does...it takes over my soul. 

tears come out of thin air, 

then it seems as if air disappears completely 

because im gasping for it.

 i think im still in denial...

you cant really be gone can you? 

just yesterday we were making pancakes at 3 a.m 

and watching nitro circus 

we were running back and fourth from your house to mine. 

{3 doors down}

how could someone  

so beautiful... 

so loving,  

so genuine, 

so important 

be gone from my life 

and the lives of many others? 

 i miss you. 

 i CAN'T 

put in words how i feel right now.

 im only writing this down because i think it helps a little...

once again you have changed my life.