distance...?

when something bad...something really bad is going to happen 

i get a tingling sensation in my cheeks and a huge knot in my stomach 

and i have to be outside because i get so claustrophobic inside. 

i have that now.

we all know the saying

"distance makes the heart grow fonder"

but does it REALLY?

i think...i may put that to the test...

i have seen it both ways...

in 8th grade my best best friend

and boyfriend colton draney moved to idaho

we were still dating

we had been dating for a year

while he was in idaho we dated

6 more months

then we broke up, i couldnt do the whole distance thing...

it made it easier for me to get over him though.

distance did not make my heart grow fonder

on the other hand

scott laxton

we had also been dating a year and a half

my sophomore year of high school

he was leaving for his mission

we fought

HARD

we broke up and kept fighting

right up until the day he left

the last time i saw him

he slammed my car door so hard he cracked my window

that was the last time i saw the 

boy i was so in love with

the boy that changed my life so much

we havent talked since january

but him being gone

has made me forgive him

and remember the good

in this case

distance has made the heart grow fonder

i guess im going to put this saying to the test

and see...