wednesday.

im not even sure of how i feel at the moment. if it's good or bad..happy or sad....but i do know i really....REALLY miss a couple people right now and more than ANYTHING i could use a hug a big huge hug! but im home alone...i should have taken my brother up on that before he left...but i just pushed him away and told him i want to be alone....i NEVER want to be alone (ok well sometimes i do but like 80% of the time i like having people around me they dont have to know me or be interacting w/me just nearby) any who...school is almost over....high school is almost over...is that real? is this day really coming?! im so excited. i cant even try to tell you how happy i am! im graduating! im rarely at school anyway honestly but to never have to go back! (: it just puts a big smile on my face. also prom is this weekend. im going with scott stokes! scott is my little brothers best friend haha and my best friends little brother and he is a stud! haha we always flirt to bug our siblings cause it creeps them out. but im so happy im actually going to my senior prom i really didnt think i would get asked! soo THANK YOU SCOTTY! i've been in such a weird mood today! gahh good thing i got paid...i guess i will go shop it off? and my birthday is on monday! 18 finally! what am i gonna do? ...nothing. but i will think of something! derek's birthday is on the 21 so maybe we will have a combined party? i dunno. this blog is really scatterbrained so enjoy.