everyone says senior year is the best, its the most fun, last year being a kid, etc. well...i guess those people didn't have the senior class i do. i have never ever had a worse year of school in my life. its not school thats so rough i guess its other things, but school well the people at school...ok SPECIFICALLY THE SENIOR CLASS they suck. ok WE suck. i suck too. i honestly dont even want to start complaining about why i hate my senior class because i will take it way too far then everyone will hate me more? probably. but...everyone has their own battles to face...mine are just harder than yours or something. im totally kidding. im basically emotionally unstable right now you could say because i did just leave school bawling my eyes out while clutching for dear life on my brothers arm while everyone stared at me...thats always fun. good thing we made it to the car and i was able to drive. its been a rough day to say the least. but just one more day of school tomorrow till spring break and i only have first period. i have a huge test in there and call me crazy i LOVE test. i love having my knowledge pushed i love figuring out problems and such. so..its wont be that bad. and my dear friend kenzie gets home on friday/saturday and derek gets home monday. those two people have been so great lately. i love 'em.
now for a subject change. listen carefully to the lyrics of this song. this song is just how i feel lately. everyone is watching each other to see them FAIL not succeed. we live in a twisted world where we need others to fail to feel good about ourselves. that is so messed up. and we have to keep our eyes open even when we sleep because to me it seems like i have to keep my eyes open because i have to watch out for myself 24/7 you never know what is going to come at you and you always have to be prepared and its EXHAUSTING! it makes me scared for my brother. i hope high school is good for him. i hope he picks good friends and is a good friend to others. he already is all those things...i just hope high school and peoples twisted expectations dont change him. my brother is my EVERYTHING....i just love him unconditionally and im glad that he is in high school with me this year because i really have needed him. he is always there to give me a big hug and let me cry on his shoulder in between classes just so i can get myself together. he is an angel. keep strong...keep moving forward...keep your head up...fake it till you make it....and all that good stuff.
hey. i know we haven't had an actual conversation in real life, but i just wanna tell you, you are gorgeous, talented, ambitious, STRONG, and just overall amazing. Don't let high school get to ya. after all, it is only about 1/30th of our entire lives. a sucky 1/30th but it's almost over :) if you ever wanna teach me how to bake, or just watch stupid chick flicks and cry, I'm FINALLY in Utah and I'd love to :)
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love, Leann
leann, THANK YOU! and i will definitely take you up on that! but maybe we can just eat baked goods and watch chick flicks and you have a long board now so we can also go long boarding!(:
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