human

lately has been rough...and lately as in since friday. we all make mistakes right? we come down to earth to live and learn and part of living and learning is screwing up and making mistakes right? somebody please even if i dont know you correct me if im wrong. so i made a few mistakes and one big one and after that big one everything i do seems to be a mistake to some people. everything. trying to have fun...nope dont even think about it missy you had fun...nope, mistake. its like i cant get a break and maybe i set myself up for this, for the cold shoulders, criticism, harsh words, hatred, and misery. maybe its all my fault and i deserve it but if i knew this is what i was getting myself into i sure would have dont things differently. im human, sorry i forgot to send a request to keep me immortal while i live on earth my bad, i didn't get the memo in time and i cant change that now. but if being human isnt good enough im screwed. let me ask you this readers....say you made a big ole mistake that hurt a couple people you sure didn't mean to hurt ANYONE you thought you were honestly doing the right thing. really you were convinced you were so you made your decision and BAM it backfires and blows up in your face, the damage is done, there is no taking it back now so ASAP you start apologizing and doing all you can in that moment to try to start making it right, thats the right thing to do right? you should fix things as much as you can as soon as you can right? thats what im going here for but when the people you need to forgive you give you the cold shoulder, won't believe you, or your not allowed to talk to them HOW tell me HOW you are supposed to right any wrong you have done to them? if they won't give you the time of day or the benefit of the doubt what are you supposed to do? im feeling quite lost, and hopeless, and lonely! if nothing i can do is good enough, if nothing i do to try and prove i AM in fact a good person is going to help me out in some way...what am i doing here? i know im not fighting for nothing in this situation...but i sure wish what i was fighting for would say "thanks for your effort, i dont forgive you yet but im sure i will come around eventually" then hey thats all the motivation i need to keep going and to keep fighting. i just need SOME type of positive feedback....thats all...

all you need is...hugs

what an exhausting day! 

might i add i only got 4 hours of sleep last night

then worked for 5 hours. 

its been a long long day....

and on long long days all a girl really wants is a good long hug 

and a kiss on the forehead wouldn't hurt. 

but of course on days like this no one is around to give them

there are just grumpy customers and bad drivers and cold ravioli. 

its 7:34...im going to shower, pile on the sweats, curl up in my bed and sleep. 

good night(: 

oh no he didn't

I am a happy worker.

Really, I enjoy going to work, because then I am

productive and it keeps my mind occupied.

Today...oooohhh today has

not been good.

And to top that off I have

(here comes the TMI part)

PMS

which pretty much sucks.

UGH!

it not only makes you more sensitive to

EVERYTHING

but then lets say you get your feelings hurt by something

stupid like someone told you

cute shirt...but it's on inside out

and you like

"BIH! I WANT IT THAT WAY

HATER!"

then you cant stop thinking about her and how dumb she is

how DARE she tell you how to wear YOUR CLOTHES!

(this is not what happened to me today in case you were wondering)

but its like you go through all these emotional stages

within minutes over the smallest things

and by the time your done 

hating

questioning

crying

plotting revenge

crying

and thinking of what to do next

your worn the crap out!

its exhusting

plus you get cramps.

Boys have it too easy.

They should give birth! or something.

meh! 

That's all, just venting.

slippery shoes never did me good

Today while interning at the Sweet Tooth Fairy

I had quite a hard time.

You see I wore a pair of black flats...that have zero grip

and the floors are...slippery?

yeah...what the heck.

WHO KNEW?!

(not me)

so while I was maneuvering about in the kitchen

carrying HEAVY trays of food...I kinda went ice skating

well thats what it felt like

good thing I'm not the worst ice skater around

no food was dropped, spilled, or squished!

thank goodness I would have seriously cried.

It is Monday so the bakery isn't too busy...

so i got to go home early...

BREAKING NEWS

My friend Kaiti Mauch Papa is having her baby girl JaNae today(:

I have known Kaiti since kindergarten 

and we've been friends since.

It's crazy...it's really REALLY crazy to me...the thought of having a baby now

Kaiti..you are so strong for going through this

your smart, and your going to be a good mom

you'll be so fun haha what a lucky little girl to have a mommy

like you to come down to(:

good luck birthing...and stuff...

I'll be at the hospital for you as soon as I can

your just getting a head start on life.

Well I have to go meet up with some friends now to plan

sadies...oh joy....?

the theme is circus...

IM SCREAMING IN MY HEAD

cause I DO NOT LIKE THAT THEME!

are we all supposed to be clowns?

no. gross.

I honestly dont have a strong desire to go..period.

But whatever...I'll make the best out of this

circus theme...BLEH!

im in a good mood today(:

i got a job this morning working retail at shopko

doesnt seem like anything amazing, cool, or fancy

but hey i have been in desperate need of a job

since i turned 16 and im 17 now...so

HALLELUIAH

i start in 2 weeks(: boo ya!

also last night was a mulit high school dance

that rocked my socks

i actually quite enjoy dancing in a crammed area

filled with strangers who are sweaty to really loud music.

call me crazy.

OH! today on my way to my interview there was a spider in my car

and i COULD NOT KILL IT

because it kept running away and hiding

so once i got home i just left the window down

in hopes that the spider would escort itself out and not invite others in

lets keep our fingers crossed!

i have a hot date tonight.

w/my incredible boyfriend who posted on my blog recently

if you haven't seen.

he's great.

oh gee...now i feel the need to brag...here we go

Taylor Wach

he's kind of a big deal (especially to me)

i have NEVER met a sweeter guy in my entire life

he always opens any and every door possible for me

if i open my own door he will close it and re-open it himself

he NEVER yells at me and i mean NEVER

never ever ever ever never!

but then again we dont ever fight

but i have done things that upset him and he just says

"lets talk" 

when i assume that a normal human would blow off the roof from yelling so loud at me

not Taylor cause clearly he is not your average human being! 

Taylor is patient

understanding

nonjudgemental

SMART

talented

athletic

caring

considerate

m i n e...(:

and a ZILLION other things

writing about him in my blog will never do his greatness justice

Taylor plays football, he starts offense and defense and he's just

so so talented, he's going to play college ball and become famous

he is also really good at making stuff w/wood

he has a wood shop class at school and 

OH BOY

he is good.

insanely talented!

I am so thankful for Taylor...he is a very loved person

especially in my family.

I have never seen my family like a boyfriend of mine so much

my dad goes to all his football games that he can

my mom ADORES him she tells me everyday

how much she likes him and how sweet and what a good guy he is

and my little brother likes him too

they like to wrestle...cute

im so lucky to have him(:

 ^ this picture...to me...as a girl the feeling of

being "small" is great, i mean small like

when you cuddle up to someone and they hold you

in their arms and you just feel like a little kid

thats how i feel with Taylor, all the time

he's just so big and strong he carries me around

like a little kid all the time

and i like it(:

he's real strong...me...not so much.

these flowers were waiting for me on my doorstep

when i cam home from a week of camping

in Wyoming. they are so pretty.

gerber daises are my favorite(:

i sat and admired them while i was supposed to be unloading

the trailer and such...oh well

owlz game

color me mine

he was making me a huge pink mug

that said

"princess kayla"

 Taylor set all of this up and took me on the

BEST PICNIC EVER

up the canyon(:

how cute!

 

 

soakin up the last of the summer sunshine

we gave each other whipped cream mustaches

(:

so cute(:

xoxo

Mckayla, My Princess

Your first thought while reading this post might be, wow, this is different. As a matter of fact, this post is different then all previous posts in many ways. 

First, this is not actually written by Mckayla.

Second, it's not filled with creativity or imaginative content.

Third, everyone already knows what a wonderful person Ms. Mckayla is, But there is a lot that many of you do not know about her, some of this will be brought to your attention today. 

I've been Mckayla's boyfriend altogether for almost a year. She means the world to me, and she knows it. :) She is kind, compassionate, loving, patient, caring, and absolutely beautiful. She's a PRINCESS! 

When I wake up in the morning I usually have a text waiting for me when I turn on my phone. It's a little something like this: "Good morning handsome!" OH MAN! That alone puts a smile on my face. After that i get the follow up text saying, "You better be to school on time today so I can see you." My sole purpose to getting to school on time in the morning is so I can start my day off on a happy note. By seeing my baby girl.

How many guys get that everyday? One. Me. I am so freaking lucky, It blows my mind that there is someone on this earth that makes me as happy and joyful as Mckayla does. By the way, this is just the start. 

Mckayla and I, eat lunch together as often as possible, we meet up after class has ended and we drive to either one of our house to make SAMMITCHES!!!! She'll make me the best sammitch in the whole freaking universe, run out side into her garage, grab a mountain dew, come back inside and have a sammitch and a drink ready for me, before i can even take off my shoes. I don't ask her to, I don't tell her to, and I certainly do not expect her to do these things for me. She does it because she wants to. 

LUCKY ME. I get to escape school erryday to spend quality time with my sweety pie! Oh, and I get to eat a bomb sammitch. Soon we must head back to school and continue our day.

When I am through with football practice I text Mckayla. Her response? "YAY!!! It's Mckayla time!" Guess what!? She is absolutely right. I never know what to expect though, there is always something exciting and wonderful happening when I get to see her again. :) 

It's sad that I can not properly express even a normal day of my life. Mckayla has enriched my life so much it is impossible to comprehend. I only described to you my normal school day though.There is so much that Mckayla does for me. 

She gives me hugs and kisses.

She gives me TONS of notes, all of which make me laugh!

She is patient with me.

She asks about my day, and how I'm doing.

She puts up with football, 24/7. How many women do you know that would sit through a sophomore game on Thursday with her boyfriend, go to the game Friday in the FREEZING cold rain and horrible weather, then would go to the BYU game on Saturday? I know one. One woman. Mckayla Lavee Johnson.

She lets me feel like a gentleman, letting me open doors for her, and escort her around everywhere we go. Not just on dates, all the time. She doesn't know et, but that by itself makes me feel like a gentleman.

She does EVERYTHING!!!

Mckayla, I am so thankful for everything you do for me. :) You are the most amazing woman I have ever met, and I am so lucky to have you in my life. You do so many small things that add up to so much, and when i don't think it can get any better, I find out you've done something else to make my life even more amazing. You truly are a princess, and I am so happy you are mine. :)

          It's 7:32, I LOVE YOU!

                                                 Taylor Wach

today.

I am in love.

with this weather.

cloudy, cold, rainy/snowy.

the mountains are dusted with snow

you can see your breath

all you want to do is drink hot chocolate,

cuddle, and watch a great movie.

you get to dress super warm

and snowboarding of course.

im excited. seems like there was no fall

it just went straight to winter!

wonderful.

i also went to my friend clark's hockey game

it was awesome! i even saw a kid

on the other team do a front flip..

it was pretty sweet.

its been such a good day just thought i would like to share(:

also orem game tomorrow.

stoked.

AND

college.

oh boy 

here we go

watch out!

Dixie...here i come

BUT

i have company

DALLAS LYMAN

ha im so excited

plan:

go for a semester just to move out

be on my own

have some fun

and work on my generals

truth is dixie sounds great

except they dont have anything i want

to study

not a thing!

but UVU does

i want to go into culinary arts

and dance.

UVU offers both! and i live

RIGHT BY IT!

perfect? yes.

but Dixie..

sunshine...all the time

school clubs

st. george

vegas

hello..my dream school

but im truly bummed

they dont have culinary or dance!

that totally SUCKS

sooo Dixie for a semester

or so then to UVU

i have dreams!

i have goals!

im going to make something great of myself

and college is the place to start i guess

im so excited!

(: