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eeekkk! im behind AGAIN! this blogging every day thing is HARD!

today is...well friday's topic was your top 3 worst traits.

well im practically as far from perfect as it gets...so i find myself thinking...where do i start? i know there are plenty of things people dont like about me. but the three worst things about myself that i see are

1. i am stubborn. i am as stubborn as it gets. i like to be right. i like things my way. i dont like to be told what to do. i HATE being told what to do. and i will argue till i turn blue and pass out if i feel like what i am defending or whatever is right. i like to do things on my own time. my own way. and i dont like to be told how things should be. i dont like to be told i have done something wrong.
thank goodness for zac though. seriously this guy....we disagree occasionally and thats fine. but fighting? we have seriously maybe had ONE? maybe like half of a fight. but whenever we get into a disagreement or he has done something to upset me or the other way around, knowing all of the above ^^^ we dont fight. and he works his way around all that and we compromise. we listen to each other. and we respect each other. i am stubborn. and he knows that. but he knows how to get around it....or he just knows to let me have my way(:

2. i am indecisive. from picking what to eat to what to wear to which way i should drive to work i am SO indecisive. i can never make up my mind. usually eenie meenie miney moe decides my life for me.and im at a pretty important time in my life right now. choosing jobs, and school and bigger stuff like that. im 19. its fine.

3. i have misophonia. which is basically i HATE hearing people eat. im not sure if this counts as a "trait" but whatever. i get REALLY annoyed when i hear people eat or even breathing loudly. it drives me insane! just ask zac i am constantly telling him to breath quietly or eat in another room. i can not be around him or anyone if they are eating. if i am eating too its fine. but if i am just sitting there watching them eat...hearing them eat. i have to leave. it DISGUSTS me. every single sound involved in eating seriously pisses me off. its not like i scream at people or tell strangers to shut up or hurt someone or throw things. i am simply ticked off. and put in a bad mood. and i know that when you eat its practically impossible to be completely silent, i still cant help it. even if for just one second, just ONE bite someone makes a noise i am instantly upset. how do i go through life? i dont know. how do i work at a bakery and a restaurant. i dont know.