HEAR YOU ME

tragedy.

one of my best friends bekki campbell

committed suicide on the 16th

she lived three doors down from me and we have been best

friends for 6 years

SIX YEARS

when i first met bekki i was

SO SHY

SO QUIET

SO AFRAID

bekki was wild and adventurous and outgoing

she was the one who broke me out of my shell

because of her i am who i am today

she MADE ME ME

she taught me to be accepting and friendly

she taught me some of the most valuable things in life

bekki made me a stronger person

one thing that has always stuck with me that she would tell me

all the time is

"you can't let others make you feel bad for being you, this is me

and if you dont like it SCREW YOU!"

she would yell that where ever we were at strangers

and i laughed at it then...but now i find myself screaming

that in my head at EVERYONE at school

she taught me to be proud of who i am

and she always told me how great of a person i am

bekki always lifted others up and made them feel

WORTH SOMETHING

when the felt absolutely worthless

and no one deserves to feel that way...

bekki is out of this painful world now and in a better place...  

everyone who ever knew her learned something from her

spunky attitude...i cant find words

to describe how i feel but these past few days have been

the hardest days i have EVER faced in my 17 years of life

and it has really opened my eyes

to life and its worth and friendship and family and who is

and who isn't important anymore

on sunday i left church after the first hour because

i couldn't handle it i was just too much of a mess to be there

and bekki's parents came over a few minutes later

not only did they both hold me while i ruined their sunday clothes

with mascara they were there for ME when it was their daughter

they lost they are so strong they made me laugh and

remember the good THEY COMFORTED ME!

they are the definition of strong

later that same sunday her brothers rory and ryker came over

as well and talked with me

the campbells are me second family i was over at their house

EVERYDAY!

i was their other daughter...

im so thankful they came to me to comfort me...when what they

are going through as a family is so much more than i can

comprehend...

a death so tragic opens my eyes to the world we live in and how

evil it is! high school is FULL of bullies!

i have been bullied i am being bullied!

all of you in your tight cliques you wont accept

anyone else into them you don't befriend those who could use

some friends your so exclusive!

ITS A JOKE!

im to blame as well im not perfect

but THIS IS A JOKE!

we are all human is it going to kill you to hang out with someone new?!

kids are bullied to SUCH EXTREMES AS DEATH

so think twice everyone before you turn someone away

cause they aren't your "bestie"

that may very well be their cry for help

think about it! 

all these little things we do EVERYDAY

that we dont even notice are considered bullying!

like giving mean looks at some girl you don't

like cause of SOME STUPID REASON

-rumors

-glaring

-EXCLUDING

-not accepting

-judging

-ETC. 

IT GOES ON AND ON AND WE DO IT EVERYDAY!

STOP IT!

mountain view students we like to think we are such

a great school and everyone is friends...are you

kidding me? thats the most bull crap i have ever heard!

we have had TWO kids who have gone to our school

take their lives! that is NOT OKAY!

reach out and stand up 

DO YOU NOT SEE THIS IS A SERIOUS PROBLEM!

lets do SOMETHING about it before another one

of our fellow students is lost as well

you hear about stuff happening like this all the time

kids committing suicide...and you

think "oh thats so sad"

thats what i always did but then it hit me

not just close to home but

AT HOME

that was my 

SISTER and my FRIEND

my NEIGHBOR

and she is gone

im not okay...im a mess

if you have ever had to help with the funeral of your best friend

you can understand in a way but this

event has changed my entire life in a positive way for the most part 

i see who is really there for me

you guys know who you are

think twice everyone before you reject someone

who just needs a friend

rest in peace Rebeka Eliza Campbell

may angels lead you in

bekki was the best aunt to her nephew liam