& life goes on...

this month has been one of the hardest months of my life. good times and bad times have come in abundance but i've been spending too much time stressing over the bad to even look at and be thankful for the good. i've felt more hurt this month than i have in a year. good-byes are not my thing...but if you keep saying good bye and that your leaving forever and never talking to me again...then blowing up my phone at one a.m the next morning in a weekly cycle...good bye means nothing. ooohhh some people, some people need to get out of high school, its time for your mission little cricket...LEAVE FOR 2 YEARS WOULD YA!? yeah....10 days...just 10 little days right? ugh. i dont feel ready or equipped to handle some of the challenges life throws my way. thats what friends and family are for though right? im right. i have the most amazing people in my life and i think they all deserve a little recognition.
 

Dallas Lyman your first, we've been best friends for 5 going on 6 years now. thats insane. thats forever! and i wouldn't trade it for anything. nobody makes me laugh harder than you, we have a ZILLION inside jokes and we add about 10 more to those every time we see each other! you've always got my back, you always believe and side with me, you stand up for me, you LISTEN i know i tell you the same story 5 different times and you still act like you've never heard it before, you give me advice, and put things into perspective for me, you push me, i love having dance with you so you can tell me to point my toes and keep my legs straight. you've been my shoulder to cry on many many times and i love knowing that at anytime i can come to your house and stay, even if its at 6 in the morning and i have to climb through your kitchen window to get in. haha i just want you to know your the best friend i could ever ask for and i would do ANYTHING for you. i love you dal.

Kyle Johnson my little big brother. what would i do and where would i be with out you? seriously. i've screwed up pretty bad...and you've covered and taken the blame for me too many times. its time i start being a better sister and start setting a better example to you. i love you with all my heart bro, i love that its just me and you in the house most of the time, i love that you always offer to make me pancakes and always talk to me about anything, you know how much i love to talk haha(: you've saved me, you always know when im having a bad day and you come up and give me a big hug and just ask if you can do anything, and usually all i really need is that hug from you. i'll never forget the night i was crying my eyes out in my room, i thought i was going to die from crying so much and from all the hurt i was feeling, then you walked in...didn't say a word, you sat down on my bed with me, wrapped your arms around me and cried with me, you didn't even know what was wrong, i love you unconditionally kyle, and your my hero and i look up to you so much, im so proud of you. for everything you do. your the best brother and son, this family would be a MESS without you. i need you everyday. your a stud. i just love you to death. xo.

Taylor Wach oooohhh wachness monster!! you...you have changed me, you have fixed me, you have been exactly what i need especially this freaking month. i've been broken down and torn apart and you just put it all together again, you are a beautiful person inside and out, you are one of the most caring persons i have ever had the pleasure to know. your a hard worker and patient, your so patient with me and i can be myself around you, i've never felt more beautiful and appreciated by someone, thank you. we have some really great times, and you can always put a smile on my face, i love how hard you work...with everything and anything you give it your all, family, friends, football, baseball you name it..you work hard and i love that about you. your always striving to be the best you can be and for that, you deserve the best. you do little things that make the BIGGEST difference, like bringing me vases of pink flowers like every two weeks and putting them on my door step early in the morning so my day starts off great! and making me a giant pink mug that says "princess kayla" on it so i can drink all the hot chocolate out of it i want..even though its summer. and dancing in the POURING rain with me just because "its what they do in movies so i wanna try it" your a total sweetheart and i cant thank you enough for helping make me who i am today.

Mom and Dad you are always right. always always always. you have a crystal ball or something but you always know everything. EVERYTHING! im done trying on my own i always come to you guys now because you give me the best advice even though its not always what i want to hear or what i want to do i know in the long run if i dont listen and do what you say im going to regret it because i've learned that from experience. i love when i come home late and your sitting on the couch dad, watching golf, i'll make a cup of hot chocolate, sit down next to you and we'll talk till the wee hours of the morning, i listen to every word you say and cling to it for dear life, i hope you know that, mom...ooohh mother(: your amazing, your good at being a mom but also at being a friend i find it hilarious how you crack yourself up. your fun to talk to i love your comments when im telling you about the creepy guys that hit on me or the crazy adventure me and dallas went on, i love you two. thanks for living with me ahah(:

My Cheeches! Kelli and Katie oh i miss you guys so much, why did you have to get married and move away? didn't you want to live at home with me and kyle forever?! haha no i love sean and devin so much, they are great guys and they deserve you. you two have been my role models my whole life. as you know cause when we were younger i was always copying everything you did and following in your footsteps, you guys are my sisters...my friends and i love you both to death, i miss not seeing you guys everyday but im so happy for you at the same time. your both doing such big great things with your lives i cant wait to copy you two!

Kelli and Sean Morris

Katie and Devin Ashby